The one about being shitty

Safiin is feeling BEYOND CRAPPY.

"you never cared about me"
"always going out with your friends but never acc me anywhere"
"never bothered about how i feel"
"here i am waiting for you n there you are sending your friend home"
"you'd prollie not even care if i died"
"mabbe you'd be happy even"
"if this is the way you are even before you're working,
i'd prollie never get to see you at all once you start working"
"its like menatang minyak yg penuh"
"you've never prayed for our wellbeing"
"you don appreciate me at all"
"never wanted to help with anything"


am i THAT evil??
so.. ppl say i should be friendlier..
i've made it my resolution.
but now i think its a bad one..
why bother being friendly?
its the one thing that she hates of me.