The one about the late nights again

Safiin's head is throbbing.

well.. loong day, little sleep. so i had this coming. a walk in the rain sure din help. was fumbling over my words with i was chatting just now. oh n yes, i should be asleep right now but i cant seem to get my mind to drift into fantasy world *wink*

anyways, here's some thought that's bugging my head...
if you like something but someone (or thing) else thats definitely in the way refuses to give you the right of passage, wat'd do you?
a) find something else
b) push on for it no matter wat the future may hold
the important thing here is.. wat do these choices imply? how does it reflects back on you?

if you like something but you dun show it. everyone else things that you're just fooling ard n not serious coz thats who you are n being the asses that ppl are, they assume. n later you get blamed for trying to ruin something that could potentially be important for other ppl. wat can you do?
show that you really mean it? but wat if by a certain something, you cannot make known your feelings? screw that certain something?
then again, how does it reflects back on you?


oh n zal said that i suffer from OC syndrome but its manageable. when i refuse that suffer is the word you use, he suggested that i could possibly possess the 'innate' qualities. now now.. to suffer is to feel/tolerate pain/loss while innate qualities means you're born with it.
OC syndrome i would say is something that's cultured - The totality of socially transmitted behavior patterns, beliefs and all other products of human work and thoughts. now that makes sense as noone is born an oc. you'll come to realise it when certain something never happens for you. by then, its too late. it has already infiltrated the core of your system.

Haa! i should get some slep!